You ever feel like you are alone even though you are surrounded by family and friends, none of them have a clue really of the turmoil. That goes on in the inside or the pain, and even the stress of being you. No one cares or wants to know the root of the scars and the pain that haunts you. That is how I feel at this very moment, as I sit next to my significant other. There are times when I feel like he is a burden the extra stress that I don't need, he is selfish amongst many other things. It has taken self control not to explode and then it's my mother. Who decides to call me after months of us not talking. I am not happy because I have been through this too before. She comes back into my life just to bring the pain, memories and abuse back in and I take it. I need a vacation to just be me and breathe, I am tired of everyone and everything around me. Not that I want to die, Im too grown for that, I just need a break. This has been a tough two weeks for me.....so thanks to all who reads this....blessings....