Saturday, October 26, 2013
Friday, October 25, 2013
Thursday, October 24, 2013
Monday, October 21, 2013
The Final Countdown continues.....
As, my birthday gets closer and closer...I realize that the best is yet to come but I begin to think about my mortality and how quickly life and time go by.
In my youth I wish I had the wisdom I have now but that would be more like cheating....I'm not worried about getting older as I am about my finances and taking a step into the unknown, becoming my own boss.
My insecurities stem from the facts that I have put in a lot of work and continue to do so and I have yet to reap or even see a small benefit of my rewards.
I know that I have to believe and continue to strive but it is discouraging at times with all the surveys and at home jobs and youtube videos and blogging and I can honestly say, I have yet to been paid for my efforts at least yet......
I still, have many flaws and things to work on, but yes world you do get better with time..
But, since I'm still in my 20's I think, I'll have a glass of wine with my breakfast...some pinot grigo to be exact......
The picture, that you see at the bottom.....is myself at the Barrister's Ball at age 18....
In my youth I wish I had the wisdom I have now but that would be more like cheating....I'm not worried about getting older as I am about my finances and taking a step into the unknown, becoming my own boss.
My insecurities stem from the facts that I have put in a lot of work and continue to do so and I have yet to reap or even see a small benefit of my rewards.
I know that I have to believe and continue to strive but it is discouraging at times with all the surveys and at home jobs and youtube videos and blogging and I can honestly say, I have yet to been paid for my efforts at least yet......
I still, have many flaws and things to work on, but yes world you do get better with time..
But, since I'm still in my 20's I think, I'll have a glass of wine with my breakfast...some pinot grigo to be exact......
Thursday, October 10, 2013
(singing, the final countdown).....It's about that time of the year, my born day.....So I have been doing extra projects...trying to get more subscribers and views on youtube....researching how to make better videos....being a mother...a fiancee'...still trying to maintain my looks and spa days.....surveys, listening to music giving my reviews..it's like it's never enough time.....or rather it's on speed....and it's going by so fast....
I wanna thank each and every person who takes the time out, to read my heart.....
It never fails to amaze me....how you can have life figured out.....
and in the blink of an eye it can change....
You never stop learning ad changing.....sometimes for the good and the bad
Be blessed......everyone......
I wanna thank each and every person who takes the time out, to read my heart.....
It never fails to amaze me....how you can have life figured out.....
and in the blink of an eye it can change....
You never stop learning ad changing.....sometimes for the good and the bad
Be blessed......everyone......
Saturday, October 5, 2013
Friday, October 4, 2013
Sex....has always been a very important part of my identity.
My way of being in control and having power...I was so insecure back then about the woman I was...I felt that was the one thing that was soooo great, that I had to offer....I used it as a means to get what I wanted....money, affection......love
Now, I realized how much I had played in a part in the destruction and hurting of myself
the self-abuse, the man I allowed to hurt me and come in my life
I had so much more to offer...but we often make our own circumstance's unwillingly
I was so angry...and in the blink of an eye..everything I had been bred and trained to become went down the drain...
My salvation came unexpectedly.....In the love of a man
who understood pain like I
He, had just lost his wife of 17 years
and that was too deep for my young years to comprehend....but life and God has a bigger plan for you and in trying to help heal his pain.....he in fact healed me....he taught me to fight and love me first....
It's OK to be a little SELFISH....after everything we all have been through ...Treat yourself........and most importantly....Love YOURself.
P.s.........Sex is still very important.......but it no longer defines me...but rather just another piece of the puzzle
My way of being in control and having power...I was so insecure back then about the woman I was...I felt that was the one thing that was soooo great, that I had to offer....I used it as a means to get what I wanted....money, affection......love
Now, I realized how much I had played in a part in the destruction and hurting of myself
the self-abuse, the man I allowed to hurt me and come in my life
I had so much more to offer...but we often make our own circumstance's unwillingly
I was so angry...and in the blink of an eye..everything I had been bred and trained to become went down the drain...
My salvation came unexpectedly.....In the love of a man
who understood pain like I
He, had just lost his wife of 17 years
and that was too deep for my young years to comprehend....but life and God has a bigger plan for you and in trying to help heal his pain.....he in fact healed me....he taught me to fight and love me first....
It's OK to be a little SELFISH....after everything we all have been through ...Treat yourself........and most importantly....Love YOURself.
P.s.........Sex is still very important.......but it no longer defines me...but rather just another piece of the puzzle
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