Sex....has always been a very important part of my identity.
My way of being in control and having power...I was so insecure back then about the woman I was...I felt that was the one thing that was soooo great, that I had to offer....I used it as a means to get what I wanted....money, affection......love
Now, I realized how much I had played in a part in the destruction and hurting of myself
the self-abuse, the man I allowed to hurt me and come in my life
I had so much more to offer...but we often make our own circumstance's unwillingly
I was so angry...and in the blink of an eye..everything I had been bred and trained to become went down the drain...
My salvation came unexpectedly.....In the love of a man
who understood pain like I
He, had just lost his wife of 17 years
and that was too deep for my young years to comprehend....but life and God has a bigger plan for you and in trying to help heal his pain.....he in fact healed me....he taught me to fight and love me first....
It's OK to be a little SELFISH....after everything we all have been through ...Treat yourself........and most importantly....Love YOURself.
P.s.........Sex is still very important.......but it no longer defines me...but rather just another piece of the puzzle